God’s Waiting Room
God’s silence can feel bewildering, like sitting in a waiting room, unsure of the doctor’s diagnosis or waiting for test results. This silence confuses the mind, stirring up endless questions: What if this? What if that? Clarity feels out of reach.
Sometimes, we find ourselves in God’s waiting room, uncertain of the next step, waiting for a sign that may not come for weeks, months, or even years. Yet, we must continue to show up—patiently enduring without confirmation, direction, or affirmation. Some days feel lonely, the pain of material afflictions seeming only to grow. Tears of pain may fall, but for a serious practitioner seeking healing and recovery, patience in God’s silence is essential.
Why is God silent? Often, it is to strip away false pride, the root of our suffering, and to intensify our longing and quest for truth. God does not abandon anyone. The Source of all reality is not a force to be feared but a personal power of love and benevolence, reciprocating with each individual according to their search for truth. Always, arrangements are being made to awaken us to His love.
The patiences required creates a fire (tapas), purifying falsity and stripping away the coverings that obscure our vision. At times, the waiting room feels dark, as if everyone else has gone home and turned out the lights. One may feel utterly alone, questioning why they remain there. Others who shared the waiting room may have left—some with joyful faces, others bewildered. Doubt may arise in that darkness, but staying in God’s waiting room is key.
Patience is what carries us through. Interestingly, in a doctor’s office, we are called patients, yet it is patience that we truly need while we wait.
Patience requires faith—faith in aligning with truth, dharma, and the steady continuation of one’s practice. This perseverance eventually leads to the jewel of divine love, Bhakti. Patience is not a forced grinding of teeth but a slow-burning fuel that feeds one’s longing.
It is the longing that removes the veil of illusion and brings one into the presence of grace. This longing energy is the divine feminine shakti, manifest as Sri Radha, the embodiment of compassion. It is her love that draws Divinity into her embrace. This longing calls forth the Source of all reality, the ultimate object of love, to hear and reciprocate with your love.
Encased within this longing is a natural humility, untouched by ego or pride. Through this humility, the world appears differently. Most of us see the universe as something to overcome or manipulate, aligning its energies to fulfill our desires. But a humble heart sees the benevolence of divinity in all that unfolds, free from the duality of good and bad.
A humble heart feels small, not from low self-esteem but from an overwhelming recognition of God’s grace. It is so kind, so loving, that one is truly humbled. This humility fuels the longing heart, drawing it closer to union with the Beloved.
When humility arises, the ego often protests loudly, desperate to reassert itself. But the sweetness of Divine Union quiets the mind and allows one to remain non-reactive, rooted in the profound peace of grace.
